Trust is probably one of the most delicate things in our social lives. It’s something that when broken is extremely hard to get back. The other sad reality is that it is impossible for others to trust. I believe that the amount of trust a person readily gives out in an emotional context is directly related to how they were treated in the past. It’s one thing to trust someone with a task, but it’s much different to trust someone with personal information. For some, to trust another person is a completely foreign concept. For others trust comes fairly naturally. I know from working with 10 year olds that kids are extremely affected by the way people treat them. A family can either really mess up or really help a kids’ ability to trust people in the future. Once a family shatters the kids’ ability to trust than it’s nearly impossible for that child to trust again in the future. They learned at a young age that people could not hold their end of a deal, and as a result rely on themselves for much self problem solving. Their main root of distrust comes from the reality of habitual disappointment/letdown and getting emotionally hurt. They learn really quickly to keep things to themselves. Even though those kids grow up and have the potential to semi trust certain people they will never truly have full faith in a person. To gain the trust of someone, who is foreign to the concept, is a very delicate task. It takes a lot to convince a person that you are a safe person to be around emotionally. I agree with McDonald’s quote that trust is a great compliment.
for spring break I get to go to Grand Cayman and scuba dive with my family. I've always loved scuba diving. It's literally my favorite thing to do, that's why I hope to live on the coast sometime in the future. Right now I'm getting my Nitrox certification. It's kinda complicated but the general idea is that instead of having the normal 21% oxygen and 79% nitrogen you have either 23% or 26%. It has mostly benefits but some precautions that's why I you have to get certified to do it. Aside from the actual diving I love the atmosphere that surrounds a dive community. I've never met an unfriendly diver, though some of them are what we call "dive dorks" and they get really full of themselves. We dive in beautiful places that normal tourists don't go, and it's always in a relaxing place. In my opinion there's few better places to be than sitting in an outdoor restaurant/hotel porch next to a dock and hear the sound of tanks banging together, people jumping into the water, air coming out of BCDs, and people talking about their days adventures. I actually just wrote a paper about diving and my teacher liked it a lot I think I got a 95% which is rare consitering my lack of mechanics. Just thought you'd like to know about my love of diving I'm sure I'll mention it a lot more in the future.
One of the main ideas of Krew lately has been relying on others and realizing that we're part of a community. A community (specifically the church in this case) should help each other out. Here's my take. I'm all for helping each other and I firmly believe that we should. If a family is going through a hard time relationally or economically than it is our obligation to help them. But my problem is when it comes to little personal issues. My interpretation of the talks has been that we should always be accountable for each other and their emotional wellness much of the time. Keep in mind this is just one small part of the talks I'm just focusing on this part for the sake of argument. In reality I know that it's right, but my own selfish, independent self really doesn't believe it. I'm a really independent person and have always been that way. So the idea of telling people about what's bothering me goes against all natural inclination. I've always believed in the pull yourself up by your bootstraps mentality. Granted there's a lot of exceptions, but at least for small issues there's nothing wrong with solving them yourself. It's a simple matter--nobody cares or needs to know what my every problem is and I don't want to tell them. They don't need to know, it's not their problem. Now if somebody else wants to tell their problems than I'm more than happy to listen, because I love being able to be there for somebody. So that's my take on the issue. Yes I admit that I'm extraordinarily ignorant and hard headed.
so in an attempt to re-answer and re write stuff from before my computer crashed I found some cool things (extremely grateful for facebook messages that aren't on my hard drive). A document that I'm trying to re create is one that contained a whole bunch of questions asked by my youth group leader that I answer. But I found a question that kinda pertains to everybody and if you've got a few spare minutes it's interesting to answer.
What do you want out of life?--it's kinda an optical illusion question. It seems easy but if you think into it than it becomes not so easy.
The second thing isn't a question it's just an interesting statement. The same leader said this last sunday night. " you do stuff (ie. have apathy towards something, behave a certain way in certain situations) because you get something out of it" dunno why but I found that statement very interesting. Maybe the context made it make more sense but I still think it's a cool observation.
I was hanging out with some friends and we were trying to figure out what everyone's personality types are based on the myers briggs test. I've got the basic idea of mine but there's just one annoyance. When we were asking each other I got the INTP, but looking it up on the internet I only kinda fit the personality. I took the test online (you can take it here) and I got an ISTP, when looking it up I fit that type much better. I've got one problem, in no way am I a sensing kind of a person (the S) I'm much more of an intuitive person (the N). So I really don't know what to think, I'll get over it but it is slightly annoying. I suggest you take the test just for the fun of it. But I personally think that it's much better if you ask someone who knows the basics of each type (each letter). They can give it more real life situation questions, the test asks the same questions over and over again.
so the one thing my school does well is spirit week. Our spirit week blows every other schools spirit week out of the water. January is devoted to learning boys poms (dance for the guys), lip sync (dance for the girls), and preparing to decorate the halls on wednesday night designated around a certain theme. We devote the 2-3 pm. hour to doing schoolwide games in the gym. There's too much to really explain but we also dress up differently every day (ie. comic book character day, duct tape day, class color) fridays is always blue and white day, the class colors. So now you have the basic idea but you'll never really know how huge of a deal this week is. So ever since 7th grade my class has basically sucked at spirit week. The first few years it was just b/c we were little and didn't have any experience. Either way the class below us ended up getting really good as the years went on. They beat us every single year including my junior year (last year). We were rediculusly worried that we would be the only senior class to ever lose spirit week in the 20 year history of the week. So they started getting really and I mean really cocky and arrogant about spirit week. As a side not even the class that was above mine who got along with everybody hated them. Ever since last year they've been saying stuff like "you guys ready to lose" and things of that nature. Well my class got really nervous and annoyed by them. So as of January, which is when we're allowed to start preparing for the week (hallways, boys poms, lip sync) we've been working our butts off all while the juniors are taunting us and being all around disrespectful. They have no respect for the fact that we're older than them-the best way to describe them is that they love themselves--simply put. So we worked and worked and won nearly every game and beat them in every dress up. By the time we got our hallway up on wednesday night (we put it up all afternoon from 3-10 pm) we knew that ours was better than theirs. But on thursday and friday was poms and lipsync the two other huge point accumulators. Both our girls and guys did great, but we were shocked when they won both of the huge events even though every single human being that I talked to said that we should have won lip sync. The juniors were such horrible winners that it got to the point that we started literally hating them. It's safe to say we were all really nervous come friday night. We got the annual varsity b-ball game and the top 2 poms and lip syncs perform afterwards then they announce the overall winners. I'm not one to ever get nervous but we were all gripping each others hands so hard. They announced the 6th through 3rd place and we waited....than we heard it IN FIRST PLACE..........THE 12TH GRADE!! I've never seen our class come together like we did this spirit week. It's been the best day of my life, my head hurts and I can't talk from all the yelling but I'm the happiest person in the world right now. The lip sync song that my class performed to was 'zero to hero' from Hercules. It basically explained our class. We're the true underdogs and ended up on top. It's our senior year and we won!!!! CLASS OF 2009!!!!
my steelers pulled off an amazing victory. It was a great game overall especially the 100 yard interception. I was slightly disappointed at the budweiser clydesdale commercials, though there were 3 of them none of them were mindblowingly awesome. Me and all the people I was with were really mad that the clydesdale who came over from the different country didn't end up in St. Louis where we are proud to call the home of budweiser. All of the tv brand (ie vizio) and tv show commercials kinda annoyed me and made me wonder why they would waste $3 million on something that people would hate. I get stressed by absolutly nothing but I was pacing around for about the last 10 minutes of the game. just one final thought.....GO STEELERS ONLY TEAM WITH 6 SUPERBOWL WINS!!!!!!!
My rock climbing journey is progressing. About a week ago I was able to get a really comfy harness and my own climbing shoes. Never underestimate the amazingness of a comfy harness. The ones they give out at the wall have no padding whatsoever so if you're coming down and the leg things aren't perfectly even than it cuts into the leg that has it tighter. I'm able to to somewhat harder walls, but nothing near what I want to be able to do. But either way I've figured out why, even though I lack strength, I like climbing. I'm a very strong visual and tactile learner. Climbing is a great combination of the two. It involves finding the path with your eyes and following it with the rest of your body. It just fits with the way I process things.